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Jay_marue
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11 years ago

Very depressed

Hi everyone, in January I was diagnosed with early stage breast cancer. I had a masectomy to remove the 2 small, grade 2 tumours. Both my surgeon and oncologist said I I do not need radiotherapy or chemotherapy as both tumours were small (1cm and 1.4cm) and were not aggressive. There was no lymph node involvement. I was really happy and relieved but now I have hit an all time low. I am very scared and down in the dumps. I have been on Tamoxifen as my cancer was estrogen positive. I am wondering if this medication is contributing to my depression? I have 3 young kids and it terrifies me to think I have a disease that could come back and claim my life. I am still in shock and crying nearly every day. I keep asking myself- "Why me? I know my lifestyle wasn't perfect but I don't deserve this!!!!" How will I get through this? The idea of being closely monitored by my surgeon and oncologist for the next 5 years terrifies me. Everything has changed and I want my old life back! Please help me!!!

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