Sick of this

Hi Jo, I agree with everything that has already been said and I certainly have moments of fear and despair myself when I wonder whether I might die well before my time.

 What I find helps a lot is to read about and plan for all the things I am going to do when my treatment is over to minimise the chances of the cancer coming back. Things like eating really healthily and including foods in my diet that are thought to reduce the risk of cancer and exercising regularly and vigorously.  And reducing the toxins my body is exposed to by swapping chemical-laden products - food, cleaning products, cosmetics etc - for more natural alternatives. And -sadly - cutting back on the chardonnay.

 I know I could do all of these things and still get a recurrance of cancer but at least I feel like I'm doing something and taking some control of the situation. And who knows, maybe these things will keep me healthy. It's worth a try.

Good luck Jo. Hope you're feeling a little better. Janet.

Hi Jo,

couldn't agree more with you and with the other ladies as well.  We will always have good days and then there will be bad days.  I read recently "Remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind - Dale Carnegie".  It is so hard to get your head in the right frame of mind sometimes, but when you do, you will be amazed at the things you can achieve. 

Speak to your GP or breast care nurse, they may be able to recommend psycologists that specialise in dealing with breast cancer survivors - they sound like a good idea - even if it was just to empty out your head of the negative thoughts.  I have found that positive things I say out loud don't stay with me as long as the negative thoughts I keep in my head.  Now I try to get the negative out and keep the positive in.

Good luck - we are all here to vent at one time or another - just like family, you can carry on as much as you like, it doesn't bother us, and we will still be here to try and help, so vent away, take a deep breath, blow out the angries and smile again.

Penny

Hi Jo,

couldn't agree more with you and with the other ladies as well.  We will always have good days and then there will be bad days.  I read recently "Remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind - Dale Carnegie".  It is so hard to get your head in the right frame of mind sometimes, but when you do, you will be amazed at the things you can achieve. 

Speak to your GP or breast care nurse, they may be able to recommend psycologists that specialise in dealing with breast cancer survivors - they sound like a good idea - even if it was just to empty out your head of the negative thoughts.  I have found that positive things I say out loud don't stay with me as long as the negative thoughts I keep in my head.  Now I try to get the negative out and keep the positive in.

Good luck - we are all here to vent at one time or another - just like family, you can carry on as much as you like, it doesn't bother us, and we will still be here to try and help, so vent away, take a deep breath, blow out the angries and smile again.

Penny

Thanks girls, I know that everyone goes through this that has been touched by breast cancer including friends and family. I am not a defeatist by any measure but some days I worry sooo much.

Hi Jo

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Its a natural process and we all feel like that from time to time. The diagnosis, treatment, the post treatment and into survivorship, everyone feels it. In time it does become less frequent I promise you that.

I found speaking to a phycologist helped me vent the anger and sadness and I would walk away from a session feeling refreshed and cheery most of the time.

Its been one year since my treatment finished and almost two years since diagnosis, I still have those days but they're a lot more infrequent. You are allowed to have your miserable days, have your cry, have your vent but always remember to let it go because tomorrow is a new day.

I found it helpful thinking of people that were a lot worse off than me. People dieing from starvation every day and milions suffering from malnutrion, third world countries who dont have medical support as we do here. I know it may sound horrible but in the long run it made me grateful for just existing. 

I wish you the very best of health, healing vibes and big hugs to you.

HLV  

 completely understand... Xoxo 

I try not to let the unknown get to me. Try not to think what if? etc etc 

but deep down inside I feel this disease is gonna kill me. 

I have issues trusting test results and statistics... etc etc 

But I just live life the best I can everyday & do what makes me happy. 

You cant do anything about it, all the worry in the world wont change anything. But you are not alone, Im sure everyone has these fears especially when we hear bad news thru this site and other support groups. We just have to live our lives to the max. Put a time limit on how long you can feel this way for then snap yourself out of it and go back to living your life. you cant let fear control your life, but u can make it change your life for the better. 

Xxx 

Merylee

 completely understand... Xoxo 

I try not to let the unknown get to me. Try not to think what if? etc etc 

but deep down inside I feel this disease is gonna kill me. 

I have issues trusting test results and statistics... etc etc 

But I just live life the best I can everyday & do what makes me happy. 

You cant do anything about it, all the worry in the world wont change anything. But you are not alone, Im sure everyone has these fears especially when we hear bad news thru this site and other support groups. We just have to live our lives to the max. Put a time limit on how long you can feel this way for then snap yourself out of it and go back to living your life. you cant let fear control your life, but u can make it change your life for the better. 

Xxx 

Merylee