Really understand what you are feeling I've seen myself in a box at the alter of our church on bad days. But other days I'm full of hope and faith. And feel my destiny is to stick around a bit longer. And another tool I have is laughter, because if I do get taken out by this insidious disease I'm going out on my terms. I reminded my good friend on Monday who was keeping me company whilst I had chemo," only the good die young". So we both said at the same time well that counts us out!!