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cranky_granny
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9 years ago

Mood swings

what a night. 
Reality bites when you wake up and reach for someone who is not there and was always there he's only passed 16mths ago no shoulder to cry on in the middle of the night.  No more what if we. Obviously got the blues happening. Just not shaking it.  
So here I go. Having a why me moment. It's not fair type of overwhelming that's not letting go.  I just so want to be the one supporting my family again. Not here feeling like this. No grumble bum hubby (his nickname) My children have so many things I could always help them with now they won't ask it's too much for you mum you have enough on your plate etc when I mention anything. 
Made a plan to visit my sister and organised someone to come with me and bam had the days wrong  the house is a mess. And I just want to run from it. Need the fight feeling back not this angry weepy roller coaster

I will keep telling myself this won't last. And there is an end in sight. And I have great prospects of a good outcome 
Rant not over but done for now just no answer to it. That happy place is just a little out of focus. 
  • Deanne's avatar
    Deanne
    Member
    9 years ago
    You are right @"cranky granny" the side effects of treatment definitely include these mood swings. You are also right in telling yourself it will pass. After a while I could see the pattern of down and then the up times. It does get better again. Glad you went for a walk. This always helped me too.

    I think many of us are used to being the strong ones, the one who is there for everyone else when needed. But this is just a short time in your life where you need to let others help you. I found it helped my family to cope if I let them help. So in a way you are still doing something to help them by letting them help you, if this makes sense?

    I am over 3 years down the track now and life has settled back into a slightly different but very comfortable place again. That will happen for you too. One step, one day at a time and things get better again. Take care and come and 'talk' on here as much as you need to. It helps. Deanne xxx
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    cranky_granny
    Member
    9 years ago
    Been for a walk seem to help   Can't be crying when walking the street. Chest and head not so heavy.  It is just a side effect of treatment.