I was exactly the same. I haven't had reconstruction but had bilateral mastectomies then 2 weeks later had right axillary node dissection. I couldn't believe how almost euphoric I'd feel some days (just glad to have survived) to extreme frustration with all the things I couldn't do. It's my wonderful husband who really deserves a medal. As you know when you're having a down day - nothing - anyone says is helpful. The good news is it does pass. Certainly 6 weeks before I felt human. Frustratingly, no one can give you a precise idea of what to expect as everyone is so unique. I found this very difficult because I wanted clear perameters with everything and on dark days I believed professionals were keeping things from me. I felt everyone was trying to 'manage' me. I guess we are all use to having some control. There is no bigger reality slap than a cancer diagnosis, major surgery and pain. Lucky us
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I was exactly the same. I haven't had reconstruction but had bilateral mastectomies then 2 weeks later had right axillary node dissection. I couldn't believe how almost euphoric I'd feel some days (just glad to have survived) to extreme frustration with all the things I couldn't do. It's my wonderful husband who really deserves a medal. As you know when you're having a down day - nothing - anyone says is helpful. The good news is it does pass. Certainly 6 weeks before I felt human. Frustratingly, no one can give you a precise idea of what to expect as everyone is so unique. I found this very difficult because I wanted clear perameters with everything and on dark days I believed professionals were keeping things from me. I felt everyone was trying to 'manage' me. I guess we are all use to having some control. There is no bigger reality slap than a cancer diagnosis, major surgery and pain. Lucky us
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What an ordeal. Glad they drained the hematoma for you though, it sounded pretty big. I'll keep my fingers crossed for your nipple. I'm not back working yet. Probably some part time work in the new year. I thought I'd be all gung ho to get back to 'normal' but I'm tired of being a sick person, being around sick people and pretty tired of hospitals. I'm sure that will change so I'd rather wait until I'm feeling enthusiastic. Thankfully we don't count on my salary to live. I've heard nice things about Norwest Hospital.
You are such a trooper. I didn't have any children and watching women deal with engorgment and other tender breastfeeding issues always bought tears to my eyes - it must be so painful. I am picturing you hugging your pillow at the squash game. I had to remind myself when I was out that maybe it wasn't OK to be massaging my chest constantly which I would do unconsciously. It's interesting to see what becomes your new normal isn't it. None of us ever imagine seromas, aspirations and clots would become part of routine conversation. May I ask - will you need any further surgeries (tissue expanders etc) or are you done with everything?
