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LibbyA
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3 years ago

Feeling a failure

Does anyone know if there is a phone consult available for breast cancer mental health?  I had two lumpectomies and axillary clearance due to cancer in one node in early 2019.   Then rads. Then hormone blockers.
Started on Anastrozole, then Tamoxifen, then Exemestane, the Letrozole.    All had such bad side effects I was taken off them.   My liver went mad. I had such bad neuropathy I couldn’t walk or even hold a cup of tea. I had brain MRI to rule out MS. After being off them for a few days most of the neuropathy has gone except one spot on my leg.   I have many other chronic conditions so pain is usual.    However now I’m feeling better, I’m starting to regret not keeping on them. I know I can’t have them, but it’s making me feel like I should have persisted even if I needed help going to the loo and eating. Off them I can go walking, shopping, visiting, cooking, etc.  I certainly am more healthy physically without them and I tell myself being active should help stop recurrence more than just sitting on the lounge or lying in bed.  But my mind is telling me I failed. I should have tried harder.  Has anyone else gone through this?   I know I can get a mental health care plan but I really want to talk to someone who understands breast cancer, or any cancer actually.     Any ideas?