Feeling a failure

Thank you all.   I spoke to a new oncologist yesterday.  Mine is on maternity leave.   She said with the side effects I have had on all four of the hormone blockers, she would refuse to prescribe them for me.   She had read about the trials with Desloratidine overseas and said if my GP or immunologist was happy for me to take them, to keep going. She also said no smoking, no alcohol, lots of veg and protein and walking and less stress are all good at stopping recurrence.  If I sit around feeling bad because of pain or neuropathy and or walk and fall, they are bigger risks.  She told me not to doubt myself. I’ve given them a try.  She has seen people get recurrences while on them and others who have never taken them have no recurrence. Sometimes these things just happen.    So I feel better now knowing she would refuse to prescribe them for me.  It’s no longer my fault, but the fault of the drugs.