False start and just a bit angry!

Hi Sandy

Thanks for the thoughts and reminder - know I've been holding the breath a little too often lately!!  I have finally had my first chemo - full dose 9 days ago and apart from a completely non-existent white cell and neutrophil count am going really well. So maybe the delays were for the best - one never knows!

Take care and wish you the very best xxx

Wow, it is wonderful to see how supportive everyone is here. I am sorry Dette to hear of your problems and your anxiety I know all to well - not knowing, etc. I haven't even reached the stage of perhaps/not chemo and the anxiety is welling up.

I do hope all goes well for you. I can't imagine what it is to be in your shoes, only that it is now three weeks since surgery for me. During all my anxiety I was told - Breathe. Don't forget to BREATHE! I know it sounds silly, however try to sit calmly and take a deep breath in through your nose, and out through your mouth. When ever I remembered to do that, it worked. Of course, we are not all perfect so sometimes my forgetting got great and my anxst was my worst enemy!

I wish you all the best

love and light to you

HI Dette

Sorry to hear all the running around and dissapointments last week. Good luck for today, I'm sure it will go well. Will be thinking of you! xLouisex

Hi and thank you all for your comments. I find it really great that you are so supportive and honest which helps me realise when I read later that my emotional response gets in the way of common sense sometimes!!

Unfortunately the bone marrow biopsy hasn't really shed any light, except that it's not really doing what it's supposed to!! So we're going on a little experiment -  today I have had an injection of neupogen to stimulate the growth of the neutrophils, blood test after 24hours to see if worked and then another Thursday morning to see if maintained. If not then I'll be getting a reduced dosage and perhaps even a changed cocktail. Regardless I will be starting chemo Thursday as we need to get 1st one in the 6 week from surgery timeframe. One positive is that there's no doubt about whether I'll have some form of this each cycle!!! Fortunately not much of reaction and was able to drive home okay so now making most of a free few hours!!

Take care all and thanks again, Dette xxx

Hi and thank you all for your comments. I find it really great that you are so supportive and honest which helps me realise when I read later that my emotional response gets in the way of common sense sometimes!!

Unfortunately the bone marrow biopsy hasn't really shed any light, except that it's not really doing what it's supposed to!! So we're going on a little experiment -  today I have had an injection of neupogen to stimulate the growth of the neutrophils, blood test after 24hours to see if worked and then another Thursday morning to see if maintained. If not then I'll be getting a reduced dosage and perhaps even a changed cocktail. Regardless I will be starting chemo Thursday as we need to get 1st one in the 6 week from surgery timeframe. One positive is that there's no doubt about whether I'll have some form of this each cycle!!! Fortunately not much of reaction and was able to drive home okay so now making most of a free few hours!!

Take care all and thanks again, Dette xxx

Hi and thank you all for your comments. I find it really great that you are so supportive and honest which helps me realise when I read later that my emotional response gets in the way of common sense sometimes!!

Unfortunately the bone marrow biopsy hasn't really shed any light, except that it's not really doing what it's supposed to!! So we're going on a little experiment -  today I have had an injection of neupogen to stimulate the growth of the neutrophils, blood test after 24hours to see if worked and then another Thursday morning to see if maintained. If not then I'll be getting a reduced dosage and perhaps even a changed cocktail. Regardless I will be starting chemo Thursday as we need to get 1st one in the 6 week from surgery timeframe. One positive is that there's no doubt about whether I'll have some form of this each cycle!!! Fortunately not much of reaction and was able to drive home okay so now making most of a free few hours!!

Take care all and thanks again, Dette xxx

Hi Dette - sorry to hear about your drama, every thing the girl say is spot on, hang in there kiddo - and vent away (we all need to from time to time), this site is a great place to vent as the ladies sure know what you are going through - we are right with you girl! x x x Josie

Hi Dette - sorry to hear about your drama, every thing the girl say is spot on, hang in there kiddo - and vent away (we all need to from time to time), this site is a great place to vent as the ladies sure know what you are going through - we are right with you girl! x x x Josie

Hi Dette,

Sorry to hear about having to delay chemo after all the preparation we put ourselves through leading up to it. The advice your doctors have given you and all the other lovely girls here online are quite right. The best thing is to just wait it out until your body is well and ready, because you definitely dont want to make matters worse. I'm sure the surgery will also come in good time after you finish chemo. Doctors are commonly faced with small detours and delays with many patients along the way. We're both in this ride now. We just have to hang in there.

Elizabeth xx

Hi Dette,

Sorry to hear about having to delay chemo after all the preparation we put ourselves through leading up to it. The advice your doctors have given you and all the other lovely girls here online are quite right. The best thing is to just wait it out until your body is well and ready, because you definitely dont want to make matters worse. I'm sure the surgery will also come in good time after you finish chemo. Doctors are commonly faced with small detours and delays with many patients along the way. We're both in this ride now. We just have to hang in there.

Elizabeth xx