Hi lezanne75 It is a tough place to be here however you will find genuine and caring women sharing generously their support The waiting game is the worst but it is literally step by step all the way I told my husband and best friend first in May the initial stuff then in June when I had a more clear picture told my sons and ither close friends and immediate family So many ynknowns at the start with questions I couldnt answer Understandable the build up of emotion It is so challenging to handle and very understandable your breakdown on the weekend The Bcna network can provide info and support and great resources I wish you all the best in the next few days if exploration and diagnosis Take time to breathe and be kind to yourself xo