Hi @FiFiK
Some ladies have found posting at night on here helps ( as well as reading other people’s posts ) .
I have a rule of no electronic devices in the bedroom so never did that but in the beginning after my diagnosis I would sometimes have a good cry at night .
Definately try some counselling with a professional
Also I did a mindfulness course a few years ago and took it up again.
I have a friend who had stage 3 bladder cancer 15 years ago and is a survivor and he said I could call him anytime for a chat as other cancer survivors “ get it” in a way others can’t - I never ring in the middle of the night but I know I could if I needed to.
We chat a lot and he is a great support.
There are also support groups around - do you have a McGrath breast care nurse- they might be able on point you to one.
Finally have a listen to the Dr. Charlotte Tottman podcasts on here - I found them very helpful.
Take care and post in here anytime - we will do our best to support you .