Lisa, Sorry to hear your news. It is quite normal to want to run and hide, feel annoyed, cranky, and totally cheesed off!!! First things first - have a humongous cry! If it makes you feel better go for a full blown tanty - throw things (hopefully soft toys), cry, scream if it helps and if you have a soft floor covering you could even go for the full body throw (with leg and arm action! ;) and then when you're exhausted, and calmer and hopefully feeling a bit better you might find it a tiny bit easier to accept - does NOT mean you have to like it in any way shape or form! On a very positive note this Friday is so fast for your surgery to be scheduled so you will be able to get back on track for hearing the all important All Clear!! Sending a huge virtual hug and best wishes. Xx Cath