Hey @Lisa50, Above all else be forgiving to yourself!!! You didn't choose this disease - it chose you!!! And it's early days yet - you'll get back to being you and being positive, and you are not selfish for feeling angry or sad!! We each deal with the total emotional turmoil that this disease throws our way, we each cope in our own way, whether it be screaming, ranting, raving, crying, swearing or all of the aforementioned :) - cope however you can but know we get it. Personally I don't think that swearing when faced with a battle is wrong or incorrect it's just a different form of battle cry - if necessary to be screamed at full voice. Go for it!!! Sending a big battle bear hug!!! Xx Cath