Hi Lisa, it is perfectly normal to feel the way you are. It comes as a big shock and I like you, did all the "right" things they say to reduce your risk. I am five months post diagnosis having chemo & still rant, swear, cry a lot in front of total strangers & get very sad. Family are good but don't get it. I still work & exercise so it is more of a mental thing. Waiting for results & plan is very draining, but once you have that you can move forward. There is a lot of support here, best wishes & take care x