@annajjj your life is def put on pause. Right now the most important thing is beating this. Everything else can wait. But don’t forget to find joy too. Just because you’re fighting bc doesn’t mean fun has to be put on hold too. Have a bath, dance around the house, meditate, go for beach walks etc. You’ll still think about the ca, but you’ll feel a lot more relaxed, and your body will feel loved again and re-find its motivation for living.
One thing, you’ll def stop thinking about bc one day in the future. It doesn’t seem like it now, understandably, but you will. It won’t be on your mind 24/7, and it won’t scare you anymore cos you’ll feel much stronger. Then you’ll resume your life, in a new and better way, and even get annoyed at the thought it once butted in your life so rudely ♥️.