Not sure where to turn for advice

It’s a real scary ride when first diagnosed 
I admit to feeling the same as you in the first days after hearing that dreaded C word. Having lost my husband just 14 months before to cancer. 

I look back now at all the things I would have missed out on if I had made different choices. 

Graduations, New grandchildren and now a great grandchild. 

The choice as to what to do is purely yours to make  
Counsellor helped heaps. I admit I googled too much in the first days. I now know that most of the stuff it says is very negative and outdated. Im glad I found this site. No one judges we can only pass on our own experience and get good resources from professional through the podcasts which all help us along the way. 

Yes no one knows whether the cancer has Spread already.
 Mine did spread (metastatic) but I am still here 8 years later with treatment options still available to keep it under control. 

I now focus on enjoying simple pleasures doing what I want and enjoy. I found out im stronger and more resilient than I thought in the beginning 
my scars are proof of that and they don’t make me who I am as a person. 

I do hope you can get through this and definitely contact mcgrath foundation also we have a helpline as well.