Hi @ay123
It is great you are getting counselling - this is a mental disease as well as a physical one.
I may be wrong, but from what I am reading you aren't scared of death but are seeking info on the manner of death to make a decision on treatment or not? If that is the case, it might be helpful to speak with someone experienced in the palliative care area?
Chemo is a systemic treatment with the aim of "cleaning up" any cells that may have spread. I was definitely freaked out by the thought of having it (and cried when I found out that was the recommendation), but now on the other side I am so glad I had it.
All the best xx