I know how you feel. I am also newly diagnosed although already went through the lumpectomy. Try to get some information from BCNA although the breast surgeon is the one who has to provide you with all the relevant information and guide your through the treatment. When I feel down, I browse through the BCNA podcasts and information, doing light house chores, watch movies and look for any other destructions not to think much of my cancer. I really try to focus on healthy eating and exercise although I like resting the most. I have to go for re- excision as the cancer/margin is still there. My lump was 8 cm ( initially just after 5 cm) and 15 lymph nodes removed. Still my surgeon said that it is curable . Who knows what is ahead, but I know I need to deal with it and try to have a positive attitude if possible.