Ah @Newby24
So you are realising what this forum is about ..... by writing (venting here) in a safe place you then get the thoughts out of your head.
I kept repeating in my head "take that you Bitch Cancer, another dose of medicine for you to be wiped out " it helped me deal with the fear at about the stage you are up to ....
Newby24 sometimes the best thing we can do is have a good cry or vent .... I would often come on here while going through treatment while others were sleeping read cry and sometimes have a little vent it is therapeutic for us to do that ....
I am now nearly 7 years since diagnosis with No Evidence of Disease... (NED) yes I have side effects but I am alive and with my kids longer than I thought I would be....
Hugs and energy to get through each treatment ....
Soldiercrab