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Giovanna_BCNA's avatar
6 years ago

Never posted before now

Posted on behalf of @Loo

Hi all, I have never posted anything before about anything on any form of social media , but I have never had Breast Cancer before either. I m eight weeks since my first doctors visit.  I had a sore spot, thought it was my underwire , changed bra to no avail and of course did the only thing a smart person would do ... I googled sore breast +breast cancer (what a dumb arse ) came back with no connection. Then one night laying in bed I gave my sore spot a rub and there it was , a misshaped lump that didn’t belong . I am happy to say I am two weeks post opp having had a lumpectomy and Noad removal. A good result from the surgeon ( I am in the public system and can’t speak highly enough about the team at Box Hill and Maroondah hospitals) and off to see the oncologist next week for treatment options. But here’s the thing , even though I have had such an an amazingly fast and positive experience with my care and a wonderful supportive family (and I feel a bit like I’m an ungrateful winger ) I haven’t actually had time to process the whole cancer thing and I am , I suppose feeling a bit shell shocked.Everyone keeps asking me if I’m ok and of course my answer is I’m fine  , but I don’t know if I am . Did anyone else feel like they had lost control of their life or do I need to just put on my big girl pants and get over it .Thanks for listening 
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  • Welcome @Loo,

    You'll have plenty of time to wear your big girl pants.  I think the majority of us lost the plot at the start and several times along the way, I know I sure did. 
    Shellshocked, yes, devastated, yes and plenty of pissed off in there as well.  That's why we call it the roller coaster.  One miinute your like "yep, I got this thing" and the next it's cloudy fog of doom. 

    People handle things differently so whatever gets you through is the right way for you. There really is no "right" way to handle this thing.   Excellent that you have had a good result and that the public system is treating you well.  

    Best of luck lovely
    xoxoxo