@cranky_granny thank you for sharing your story. Thank you also for your insight.
Going into this I thought that it would be surgery and then a follow up treatment and the life would be back to normal.
I’m now realising that I may have been a little in denial and also trying to show those around me that I’m fine so not worry them.
After hearing from others in the group I’m realising that it is ok to have lots of different feelings and that no feeling is right or wrong. I need to take each days as it comes whether it be good or bad and that this will be an ongoing process.