Hi Booklover, In a nut shell...YES! Like you I was diagnosed and had initial treatment over Christmas and News Years. I am now having chemo..but remember ploughing through these festive times with a smile on my face until it all hit when I was facing my first round of chem. I think for the sake of others in our lives and at this time of year we push through until something becomes the brick wall...then it hits. I have since rallied again, as will you and pushed on. This site is great for venting so use it...it's great to share your burdens here!