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Vivianna
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9 years ago

Mastectomy and reconstruction tomorrow...trying not to freak out

Its exhausting, all of the tests, fertility preservation went well yesterday, they managed to get 11 eggs! Ive got my fingers crossed that there will be some survivors out of this batch, I know I'm strong but I can't do that again...71 injections/cannulations to date. It's suppose to get easier right? Im still waiting for it to. The most exhausting part is trying to keep it together for everyone else, especially my hubby. Im living a world made partly of quiet optimisim/depression/denial, hubby said to me he's waiting for me to fall apart and thinks it will happen once ive finally had the mastectomy... I don't really know what to think or how to feel about this? I really don't have any spheres of reference...im just trying to keep positive and only focus on one step at a time. I am a bit worried that Im having the mastectomy tomorrow but still haven't got an oncologist yet, probably should check on that! Anyway, hopefully things will go well tomorrow ❤
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  • nikkid's avatar
    nikkid
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    9 years ago
    Thinking of you tomorrow Vivianna...one day at a time :). Take care
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    Butterfly_40
    Member
    9 years ago
    Hi Vivianna,

    You are a very brave beautiful young woman and you have done very well so far. We are all in an emotional roller coaster, there are highs and lows. It's ok to fall apart at some point, we can pull ourself up and keep going. 

    I wish you the best and good luck with your surgery and recovery! 

    My heart and thought will be with you tomorrow!

    Lots of love and hugs for you!
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    Hopes_and_Dream
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    9 years ago
    sorry, lost half of my post....
    You must be feeling numb heading into surgery, but it is a positive day - you are one step closer to being cancer free!  I think we go into survival mode to do all we need to.  
    It really is just one step at a time and not looking too far ahead.  You will cope with what is right for you, breakdown or not.  Just do what you need to to get through this.
    I had my first tears and breakdown when the surgeon called into hospital to give me the good pathology report.  Everything had been held in til then and it was just complete relief.  When I called my husband FaceTime with the news I was still crying so poor thing thought the worst!
    Wishing you all the best for your surgery tomorrow.  You will be taking all our positive thoughts with you.  When you can, let us know how you are doing.  Sending a hug, Jane xx



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    Hopes_and_Dream
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    9 years ago
    OMG, you should be so proud of yourself!!! Having gone thru IVF I know the emotional roller coaster you are on, but you did that with a needle phobia and breast cancer surgery ahead of you too.  And what a great result getting 11 eggs. That gives you really good odds to get a good fertilisation and thaw rate