Its exhausting, all of the tests, fertility preservation went well yesterday, they managed to get 11 eggs! Ive got my fingers crossed that there will be some survivors out of this batch, I know I'm strong but I can't do that again...71 injections/cannulations to date. It's suppose to get easier right? Im still waiting for it to. The most exhausting part is trying to keep it together for everyone else, especially my hubby. Im living a world made partly of quiet optimisim/depression/denial, hubby said to me he's waiting for me to fall apart and thinks it will happen once ive finally had the mastectomy... I don't really know what to think or how to feel about this? I really don't have any spheres of reference...im just trying to keep positive and only focus on one step at a time. I am a bit worried that Im having the mastectomy tomorrow but still haven't got an oncologist yet, probably should check on that! Anyway, hopefully things will go well tomorrow ❤

OMG, you should be so proud of yourself!!! Having gone thru IVF I know the emotional roller coaster you are on, but you did that with a needle phobia and breast cancer surgery ahead of you too. And what a great result getting 11 eggs. That gives you really good odds to get a good fertilisation and thaw rate

sorry, lost half of my post....You must be feeling numb heading into surgery, but it is a positive day - you are one step closer to being cancer free! I think we go into survival mode to do all we need to. It really is just one step at a time and not looking too far ahead. You will cope with what is right for you, breakdown or not. Just do what you need to to get through this.I had my first tears and breakdown when the surgeon called into hospital to give me the good pathology report. Everything had been held in til then and it was just complete relief. When I called my husband FaceTime with the news I was still crying so poor thing thought the worst!Wishing you all the best for your surgery tomorrow. You will be taking all our positive thoughts with you. When you can, let us know how you are doing. Sending a hug, Jane xx

Hi Vivianna,You are a very brave beautiful young woman and you have done very well so far. We are all in an emotional roller coaster, there are highs and lows. It's ok to fall apart at some point, we can pull ourself up and keep going. I wish you the best and good luck with your surgery and recovery! My heart and thought will be with you tomorrow!Lots of love and hugs for you!

Thinking of you tomorrow Vivianna...one day at a time :). Take care

This weekend it will all be over and you will be recuperating instead of worrying. Do hope all goes smoothly for you and wish you all the best for your recovery.xx

Mastectomy and reconstruction tomorrow...trying not to freak out

34 Replies

mum2jj
Member
9 years ago
so glad you are doing well. Big hugs to you.
Paula xxx
nikkid
Member
9 years ago
So so glad to hear you're doing well Vivianna. We hope the collective love, support and understanding we can send you helps a little.

Take it slowly. Each day you'll feel better and in a few months' time this will all be a distant memory :)
socoda
Member
9 years ago
Fantastic news. Relax now and recover. Xx
RNSW
Member
9 years ago
Hi Vivianna,
Happy to hear you're doing well and the surgery is over and done with. Thinking of you and wishing you the best.
Rita xo
Butterfly_40
Member
9 years ago
Well done, Vivianna. So glad that you are doing well. Keep up with all the great works. Wishing you recover well from the surgery!

Lots of love and hugs for you <3
<3 <3
primek
Member
9 years ago
Glad all going okay.
melclarity
Member
9 years ago
Vivianna thanks for letting us know how you are!!! I was thinking of you as I woke this morning, sending a big hug! Very proud of you, you seem to be doing OK! Keep us in the loop. Hugs Melinda xo
Vivianna
Member
9 years ago
Thankyou all for your love, virtual hugs and support, I couldn't have done it without it ❤
Vivianna
Member
9 years ago
I woke up today not knowing what to expect but feel better than I deserve! A few minor complications which means ill be hanging out at the hospital for a bit longer but otherwise I feel great
Hopes_and_Dream
Member
9 years ago
Thinking of you and hoping you are out of surgery and feeling OK. Wishing you a restful night and good recovery over the next few days.
take care, Jane xx