@6ftred - How well I remember the 'vacant staring' - looking but not seeing .... I did that a lot after my surgery when I was back home & doing the shopping (home chores never cease!) I was lucky that my GP was there at the time & stopped me! I had 1/2hr free consultation in the middle of Aldi's!! LOL
It is a roller coaster ride, at best .... lots of highs & lots of lows, but we can ride them out. If you have a 'moment' - jump on here & ask ANY question that springs to mind. We have some inspirational posts as well as downright funny posts ..... it is not ALL serious here!
Where abouts are you (City/town) - we may well have members who can point you towards excellent resources that may be of help to you xxx
All the best with your surgery in Feb & pathology reports, where you'll get your plan. In the mean time - keep yourself busy - doing things you love & normally do. Don't use Dr Google - everyone is unique in their diagnosis. Tell those who you will believe be supportive of you and the family. You don't have to tell EVERYONE! I've only just told some (including family members) 12 months after I've had my surgery! I kept everyone informed with a 'group' email (some set up blogs) - letting them know that I may not get back to all the replies. Just do what feels right for you xx
Take care xx
