Hey @MezDiaz,
Welcome lovely. As you have already seen there are some amazing people here.
The denial/shutdown I thing is a self preservation thing I think. I get pretty good at locking things in the back of my mind with a big sign that says "Stay the hell out of here". It makes no sense when you feel perfectly fine and healthy to be told you have cancer. It's like what the heck?
I hear you regarding having to counsel the rest of the family. That's why I did my appointments on my own so I didn't have to pick up anyone else's pieces. Still, it gives you a chance to talk about it without really talking about it if that makes any sense. Gives you control of the conversation.
Some of us hit the floor straight up and some do not. The rest of us have a bit of a roller coaster ride depending on the day, time, hour. Whichever way you handle it is ok.
You have already gotten through one massive hurdle and to get another just plain out stinks to say the least.
Have faith in your team. They know their stuff. Even if you just have to go through the motions for the moment.
Keep talking on here. We all "get it".
All the best.
xoxoxo
