Thank you everyone xx Talking to family and friends results in my getting 5 words out before they manage to turn the story around to be about them. I then find myself counselling everyone else as per usual! I think I've reached the point now where enough is enough and I need to look after me but the cancer doesn't register. I'm taking all your advice and just stick to the plan with surgery. I feel like I'm being rational in my thoughts but maybe I'm not and I'm in denial, so I'll go along with the doctors.
I'm taking your advice @Brenda5 with the hobbies (and not wasting time on so much cleaning!). And @kmakm I think I will call the nurses. Thank you xxx
