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Despair
Hello. Have had surgery and will start radiotherapy on the 19th June and estrogen blocker for 5 years. Had Asperger's Syndrome and depression already. I'm 53 and after an horrendous life filled with cruelty I thought I would get through this easily as it is not the worst thing that has happened to me. No. I am numb, have developed a hatred for men and spend every day fighting off suicidal thoughts. I know I will get through however I am seeing myself from an out of body sort of sensation where I feel as though someone else has taken over. I feel like an entirely different person and am aware that I am developing some kind of disassociative personality disorder. Autism is exhausting and this on top of it is like being buried alive. I don't want to add to anyone's depression but I really have nothing left to give. I don't know what else to do.
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No, I don’t live there. I don’t need to live there to understand it. Lockdowns are cruel and no one should have to suffer through that. They are also unnecessary. That’s why I said people should fight back.iserbrown said:
Do you live in Victoria?I don’t think we should send affected people to Alice Springs 😆🤔, but I agree that people should fight against lock down in Victoria.
You need to live here to understand it!Different people have different sense of humour. What might be funny to one, might not be funny to another, and vice versa. On all topics. That doesn’t mean we should stop laughing. That’s almost as cruel as the lockdown. We need to understand we’re all different, put the judgement aside, and change our reaction to certain things.- Hey @Autismandbc - us Victorians do have a sense of humour but, like other places around the world, are being caught by people who have been overseas and we generously let back in ! As @Afraser says, human nature being what it is means that the whole world is fighting to control the virus. Your location is shown as "Perth (Police State)" - please respect your authorities for their strength, they have kept you safe thus far. We'd all like people to be quarantined in purpose-built facilities but these require a suitable location, substantial money, adequate trained staffing etc. - this cannot happen overnight. Lockdowns have worked, even though we hate the restrictions, the leaders have done their very best and I am sure none of us would want to be in their shoes. All the best, may the virus stay away from you - and us all.
- No we Victorians are not special - we have had four times as many COVID cases as NSW and almost as 15 times as many deaths. We don’t want to be there again. No amount of finger pointing can get round the problems of people being people, assuming they can do what they have always done. The sarcasm/humour isn’t warranted, we’d all like it to be over and shipping the problem to the NT isn’t very helpful either! Lockdowns have worked, even partial ones like the Northern Beaches. Be happy that WA has been spared much of the difficulty.
- Clearly we aren't " all in this together", LOL, sarcasm, wit, humour, irreverence, idiocy; it's all the same thing. It's about being able to laugh regardless of which label you use to define meaning.
- However I do actually think that the infected should go to sweet Alice or Nahru......nice little holiday and unable to just piss off to NSW or Qld. See, we in WA are used to being trapped and isolated and regarded as inferior to the east coast so being locked down in the homes that we choose to live in is not as DEVASTATING for us as it is for our superior east coast comrades.....
- Sarcasm
- I forgot that Victorians are different and special human beings and their experience of Covid cannot possibly be understood by mere non Victorians....... the Alice Springs comment was actually a non Victorian concept called "humour"....
- I’m glad your terrible neighbour moved out @Autismandbc. I’ve had terrible neighbours, and just like terrible bosses and partners, they can make your life hell. I think this is a massive step in the right direction for you 👌🏻👌🏻.I don’t think we should send affected people to Alice Springs 😆🤔, but I agree that people should fight against lock down in Victoria. It’s already proven to be a very futile method.Good luck with radio. One step closer to beating this ca for good 🍀
- Hello Halla. How are you? I'm a bit happier than last week because my radiotherapy starts on Thursday this week. Feels like I can see the light at the end of the blackness. Just wanna smash 3 weeks of radiation, start popping the estrogen blockers, and get off my fat arse and lose 10 kgs before November..... I'm going to go and get some melatonin for sleeping because of the friggin hot flashes all night that make me feel cursed by Satan. The best part about this week is that my evil neighbour who tormented me for 5 years, is MOVING OUT!!!!! That witch attempted to try and have me move out after directing repeated abuse at me in ways which you can't even imagine, however I kept getting back up and my refusal to be beaten resulted in her giving herself a mental illness and too scared to even look at me. At least now I can focus on my treatment without having to worry about her. How is it in Melbourne? I wish the people would rise up and refuse to be locked down every time someone gets infected. We need more women with level heads in Canberra to even out the idiocy coming from the men. I would have a go but they would discover all my past mistakes and tear me to pieces like a shark feeding frenzy. It it were up to me all people who are infected get sent to Alice Springs.....
