@PatsyN
Hugs beautiful lady... it is a very tough roller coaster ride none of us want to get on but on we must....
I see a clinical psychologist as I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) from the treatment .... I am 5 years out since diagnosis and I see her just less often....
Your grandchildren will adjust kids are more resilient that we give them credit for .... Once you are completely through the chemo, surgery and Rads you will start to heal it is a process but your grandchildren will see again the grandma who they knew before this began....It took my youngest grand kids a bit to adjust as they were worried they would hurt me if they cuddled me etc...
those of us who have traveled this roller coaster ride get it.... Get yourself a mental health plan and see someone who understands the angst that is inside of you....
Surgery and rads were my easier part of the ride.....
I did get very tired but I am here 5 yrs on with No Evidence of disease (NED)
Take it one breathe at a time.
SoldierCrab