Hi "Vivianne Vanessa", I am so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I just wanted to post as I am in a similar situation and it can feel very lonely and isolating. I was diagnosed in September 2016 at the age of 24, so I get your feelings of disbelief with your age. I am booked in for a double mastectomy with immediate reconstruction using implants on the 19th of January and freaking out about it. I had a sentinel node biopsy and lumpectomy first as my biopsy came back inconclusive. I also have a HUGE phobia of needles, my surgeon prescribed me valium basically the minute she told me I had breast cancer, as I had to have so many tests and needles, so I get the needle thing. I am petrified.. I was given midazolam for surgery so that I could not be so panicked about the drip going in, and that really helped. The beginning can be really hard, so just try to take deep breaths, because you will get through it. Please feel free to private message me if you would like. Not that I know a whole lot, but I am learning, and am happy to chat and listen anytime xxx