Ah, @Julianna that just sucks. No wonder you are struggling to get your head around the whole thing.
There are some younger women on the forum now, and many from years ago have motored through your situation and gotten back on their feet.
Me, I'm an old biddy with a different variety of what I call Tit Pox from you, but I'm still around 16 years after first being told I was not in a good position. I've done this twice now, and would like to say it gets easier, but there is a reason we don't want this shit of a disease.
Hang in there, and I hope you can connect with someone closer to your own age. MXX