4 weeks today!

God you made me laugh!  I agree, the site is a bit hard to figure out.  To post a new message go into 'my profile', click on 'blog' and there's a 'create new message' thingie.  And yes, save instead of post is a bit confusing!  As for my hair - I haven't lost any yet.  In fact yesterday I put a colour through it as the greys were starting to creep in, and I have my monthly lunch with my girlfriends tomorrow, so I can't let my public see me with grey hairs!!!  Everyone has said not to bother with a colour but bugger it, I went ahead and did it.  I don't want to do the scarf thing when I do lose my hair as I think that really makes you look like a cancer patient, so I have a couple of wigs on standby, but everyone who's been through this says they're really not in summer.  Oh well, time will tell.  Ok, now i have to go and try to log into Centrelink but my chemo brain has kicked in and I can't remember my password.  Plus I need to make a cake for tomorrow's lunch - that will be a challenge given my mental state!  And then my lovely brother-in-law is coming over this afternoon to FINALLY mow my yard as it looks feral.  I usually mow myself but find it's one of the many things I just can't do at the moment.  Oh, I'll also attempt to clean the fish tank (thanks Mum but I really didn't want a fish tank!) and again, it will be interesting to see how that goes - I wonder if I"ll have any fish left tonight!!

Hi - I'm in Brisbane.  My drugs are Fluorouracil, Epirubicin and Cyclophosphamide.  The nurses want me to get a portocath but I have no intention of doing that.  I had no choice about having a mastectomy or the chemo, but I can make a choice about the portocath and it's a NO!!!  The thought of anyone coming near my chest at the moment is awful!!!  In answer to your question- yes, I do find myself putting on a brave face in front of friends and family so as to not cause them stress or sadness.  My sister came with me to my first chemo session and I could see she got quite emotional, so I was cheering her up!  She was also there when I attended the breast clinic and was told it was probably cancer - again, I was consoling her!  She has been wonderful though - do anything for me.  I have cried in front of her only once, but boy, have I cried on my own!  Getting teary now.  I am divorced and live on my own, so I can let my guard down at home.  I am very happy being single, but this is one of those times when I very much would love to have a partner to help me cope!  At this stage I am trying to maintain life as normal but even after only one session of chemo I find I am pretty tired and nauseous.  I'm currently temping, and next week have one day's work - first time since my surgery.  I'm sure I'll be buggered at the end of the day, but I'm looking forward to getting out of the house for more than an hour or two. I'm sure we can go through this togehter and keep each other's spirits up! Whereabouts do you live?

 Hi there, thanks for your reply.  At least my chemo is every 3 weeks, not weekly!  Please do keep in touch as we go through this together.  I've heard chemo gets worse as you go through it - so far I'm doing ok but I've only had one session.  Any advice you have will be more than welcome!

Hi Silks

Thanks for your comment.  I have recieved 3 comments from my post today and find it so encouraging and welcoming!  I will for sure egg you on with the chemo!  So far I've felt a bit nauseous and tired but suspect this may get worse! I got a wig from the oncology ward when I had my treatment last week and then another couple of wigs from a friend who beat breast cancer a couple of years ago.  I am a natural (well, helped by the bottle these days) redhead and one of her wigs is blonde - woo hoo - always fancied being blonde.

Again thanks for your reply - it has really meant a lot to me

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