Just venting

I wasn’t sure where to post this. And there are a few things to say.

1. Has anyone had the experience of people giving advice as to what to do with treatment etc? 
   I’ve had people tell me to seek other treatments. Yesterday someone who I vaguely know sent me links to iodine to cure breast cancer. And said that he hopes I don’t do surgery or radiation. That surgery spreads the cells. 🥺 of course this had rattled me & I’m in a triggered state. I’ve deleted the message & blocked the number
2. also, I’m so emotional, scared, sad, not sleeping well. I’m going to try to call the help line today & seek a counsellor. I have a counsellor for trauma CPTSD but I can’t afford her now and she’s not registered to get subsidised sessions 
3.  Another piece of advice from another person was to try to stay out of fear as it lowers vibration. I totally understand vibrational energy but how on earth do I stay out of fear 100% of the time

i am scared. I am afraid of what is to come. I find it difficult to still myself, to meditate or pray.

i also know that this will pass but right now, I feel vulnerable & alone (even though I have a supportive husband) 

I find it difficult to reach out too. Hope this is the right place to post here