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Feeling down
Hi,everyone,just an update..went back to PS yesterday,i now have nipple necrosis and have to go back to surgery tomorrow to remove dead skin and make sure there are no other issues.he was going to do first expander fill,but now that's been delayed..just feeling bit like its two steps back and haven't started any other treatment yet,chemo ect,feeling a bit overwhelmed,and on another I'm angry with myself that I can't stop smoking,feel like bit of an idiot about that,anyone else have this problem
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- Thank ya lovely. I'll check it out.
xoxo - Hi there @kezmusc ...I get mine from a shop called Vapour Power in Thornleigh Sydney. The online details are vapourpower.com.au and their phone number is (02) 841115299
- Hey @AllyJay,
Do you have a link to where you get it from? Sounds like it's worth a try. - Hi there @Susie9 ...I started smoking at age 14, and aside from stopping when I was pregnant and then breastfeeding, I continued to smoke heavily until about age 55. I then gave up (sort of)...I still smoked when severely stressed and the between half a ciggie and half a pack of ciggies...it varied. Then my daughter got me onto E cigarettes, or vaping. I was able to get the nicotine liquid online, but then stopped that, and now I just have a nicotine free mixture bought locally. It has a lovely banana, mango and caramel flavour, but you can get literally dozens of flavours. Menthol. liquorice, tobacco, apple and so on. I still get the hand / mouth gratification and the drawing in (I call it my Sucky Machine), of basically steam vapour, and then the visible blowing out of what appears to be smoke. So that whole ritual of the hand mouth thing, the sucking in and then the blowing out thing is still there. The cost is less than a quarter of cigarettes at the same volume and there is no ashtray smell on you or your clothing. No yellow fingers, and no tobacco breath. No tar, no carbon monoxide. I really suggest you give it a go. Since using the vape, I have not had even one drag on a real cigarette, despite going through the whole shitfest of the cancer gig including both tits getting the Big Chop and being diagnosed with a brain aneurysm. I'm now 60 and ciggie free. Sending a big hug (((hug))).
- Hey ladies it occurred to me that you might like to start a 'trying to quit smoking' discussion for support/consolation/tips. Could help some others out with the same issues & be easier to find. Just a thought! :) K xox
O my @Susie9 reading your first post it was as if you were taking the words straight out of my brain. I was diagnosed last February and you would of thought that the first thing I would of done when leaving the Dr's surgery was to throw the packet of smokes in the bin, But instead I lit one up. The thing that frustrates me in my case was I stopped 3 days before my operation and didn't smoke while in hospital. Could of because believe it or not there was a smoking area on the grounds. So 8 days smoke free. And I didn't find it to hard. Leaving hospital YEP lit one up. Like you are I feel guilty/ashamed/stupid. I have cut down. But just can't seem to give it up completely. It's almost as if I think BC took so much its not taking that as well.
Good luck with everything.
Jan xxxx
- Good luck Susie. K xox
- Thanks for the support ladies,i just can't help but feel a bit guilty/ashamed/stupid for still wanting to smoke when I know it's bad for me,especially under these circumstances,i am lucky enough to have a supportive family which I'm extremely grateful for,my partner does nag a little about it(reformed smoker,who had no trouble giving up)but he does understand it's hard for me..will update tomorrow or next day RE surgery to remove necrotic skin..hope everything OK with expander otherwise that will be coming out too, xx
- Hey @Susie9 Some people can go cold turkey but for most people, they will try a number of times before succeeding. Did you know that smoking is one of the hardest addictions to break? Go easy on yourself, girl and cut yourself some slack. I gave up over 20 years ago (wow! I'm shocked when I realise that). Much of the quitting industry was in it's infancy then and I used patches.
Some tips that might help. Make smoking uncomfortable... Don't sit down, hold the ciggie in different fingers, don't have a coffee or whatever at the same time, wait for a specified time after meals, smoke in designated places only, etc. Try not to smoke in a new place or with new people. Put off having a cigarette for a block of time and do something else. Have something healthy to eat to take away that craving taste in your mouth - I used mandarins. And biggest thing is not to beat yourself up if you fall down - just move on. These can help to break down the psychological and physical addictions, gradually.
But I'm only suggesting these things if you're ready to want to try them. You've got enough at the moment to be stressing about more. - Hey Susie9, it took me 7 tries over about 3 years to give up smoking and that was pre cancer so don't be hard on yourself. I agree with the others that this isn't the best time to try to give up, but one tip I will give you is that caffeine hits the sensor in the brain that triggers a craving for a smoke. It wasn't until I learnt this and cut down on caffeine that I could finally give up.
Oh, and another tip …. I was still having cravings years after my last smoke.
Be kind to yourself, you have enough on your plate
