Hi there Kip, I was diagnosed October 2018 TNBC, what your feeling and your thoughts are normal. I remember when I was first diagnosed feeling, dreaming the exact same thing.
Would recommend to see your GP to write a script for something to help you sleep, I found this so helpful, as you can cope with more if you get a good night sleep. Also I did a lot of meditation which was also helpful.
There are a lot of people on this forum who are 7years plus cancer free that we’re diagnosed with TNBC. This has given me the strength and courage to stay positive and kick this cancer crap to the curb.
You CAN do this, as daunting as it seems at the moment, you CAN beat this shit..........
Anytime you want to talk you can PM me privately.
Be around positive people, have positive thoughts posted everywhere, most of all be kind to yourself, you will have bad and good days, it’s normal it’s a roller coaster of emotions. The important thing is that you pick yourself up from the bad days , dust yourself of and get those positive thoughts happening again.
We are all here for you.
C xx