HI @Kip, as you can see from the comments above, you have come to the most supportive and loving place.
The early days after diagnosis are the pits! I'm sure each and every one of us have immediately gone to that dark place. I know when I was diagnosed in Oct 2014, all I wanted to do was live until January to see my granddaughter arrive safely. Well, she did, but arrived 11 wweks early, possibly due to her poor Mum's stress about me!!
Fast forward 5 years and we've also welcomed another grandson and life looks much brighter.
Take the advice of others on here, stay busy, take one day at a time and let those beautiful babies of yours be the best distraction!!
Take good care. Everyone here is thinking of you. Big hugs,
Michele xx