I can't help you with your concerns as I do not have your type of cancer nor am I your age, but I am hearing your desperation. There will be others who come here with their stories to help you, soon. In the mean time, search through the topics on this page, you might find someone else who has asked questions that answer your concerns and can give you some help. Someone told me to take some deep breaths, it helped. And to take each step at a time, it is too stressful to rush ahead all at once, perhaps you can find some comfort there too?
