So it turns out waiting is not for me….

Hi everyone, I wish we never met here, but here we are. I also got diagnosed on 28th July and I can't even utter the words of the diagnosis. This thing has completely changed me in such a short period of time. Everything is different. I feel like I am just a shell of my old self.  I can't help but feeling very challenged with the conversations with close people who know about my diagnosis yet there seems to be no care on the topics they want to discuss with me. Please don't take this as judgement, it's just me not having the capacity any more. I feel like something just died inside of me, especially patience. Even when others ask "how are you", and I say "oh good", but wanted to scream so loud and say I'm falling apart cause I've just been diagjosed with ........  I sincerely wish we all get through this and we all recover. I pray for everyone 🙏  I am sorry if my message is bit "down", but it's just one of those moments where I just need to put it down "on paper". This is so hard.

I hope and pray 🙏 we all get through this and meet for coffee and lunch one day and say how we are all doing well and are cancer free 🙏 ❤️