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Hi everyone, I wish we never met here, but here we are. I also got diagnosed on 28th July and I can't even utter the words of the diagnosis. This thing has completely changed me in such a short period of time. Everything is different. I feel like I am just a shell of my old self. I can't help but feeling very challenged with the conversations with close people who know about my diagnosis yet there seems to be no care on the topics they want to discuss with me. Please don't take this as judgement, it's just me not having the capacity any more. I feel like something just died inside of me, especially patience. Even when others ask "how are you", and I say "oh good", but wanted to scream so loud and say I'm falling apart cause I've just been diagjosed with ........ I sincerely wish we all get through this and we all recover. I pray for everyone 🙏 I am sorry if my message is bit "down", but it's just one of those moments where I just need to put it down "on paper". This is so hard.
I hope and pray 🙏 we all get through this and meet for coffee and lunch one day and say how we are all doing well and are cancer free 🙏 ❤️
- Gr8ful-jen18 days agoMember
MazaDj, I could have written so much of this myself. ❤️ I was also diagnosed on the 28th July and I completely understand what you mean about conversations with people suddenly feeling different. I’ve found myself saying “I’m okay” when inside I’m thinking, how can I possibly be okay when I’m still trying to process what has just happened?
I’ve also had some very well meaning “stay positive, you’ll be fine” comments, and I know they come from a good place, but sometimes I don’t need someone to make it better — I just need them to sit with me in the fact that I’m frightened and that this is hard.
Please don’t apologise for your message being “down”. I’m actually really grateful you wrote it because it made me feel less alone in some of the things I’ve been feeling too. ❤️
And I absolutely love the idea that one day those of us who were diagnosed around the same time could be sitting together having that coffee and saying, “Look how far we’ve come.” 🌸💗