Hello Deekay77,
I'm on your rollercoaster too!
I've had similar issues trying to navigate. There simply isn't much info out there on recurrence. It would be great to see advice on how to manage a recurrence diagnosis both with the mental adjustment as well as medical treatment options. Everything seems to focus on the fear of recurrence but what about when it actually happens?
It's a bit like hitting replay, but at the same time it's a new experience that I would love to hear from others what their new course of action involved.