Welcome @kiwikris72,
Certainly stinks to be here for sure but you are in the right place for support and excellent advice from those that have felt the way you are feeling now.
I had lumpectomy and axillary clearance. I had 6 weeks healing time time and then went off to chemo for 6 months. Another 4 week break and then the radiation.
The fear of the unknown does your head in. While I would have rather been anywhere else the reality turned out no where near as horrid as what my brain had conjured up.
Just try and deal with one goal post at a time lovely.
xoxoxoxo