Fear of the unknown

So sorry to see you joining us here Collette​   Getting a BC diagnosis really mucks with your brain even more than your body, I reckon xx   Feeling anxious (even angry!) is totally normal - but If you get sad/frustrated with anything - give the Help team a call on 1800 500 258 (Mon-Fri 9-5) for a confidential chat. 

Also, consider listening to Charlotte Tottman's podcasts.  She is a Breast Cancer Onco-Psychologist who was diagnosed 5+ years ago and has 'lived experience' of what we've all gone thru - she had double mastectomy, choosing to remain flat.  Her reaction to her own diagnosis (and ongoing treatment) was markedly different to what she'd been advising her clients over the years!  She had the same fears & confusion with 'the process' and is well worth listening to! 
She is very easy to listen to.  She has 2 x 'seasons' ... this is the first from the first series.
https://soundcloud.com/bcna/what-you-dont-know-until-you-do-with-dr-charlotte-tottman-episode-1-d-day-diagnosis-shock

Also, check out this post - as there is a LOT of info in it about the general forum.  We chat about our gardens, our sports, art & craft & many other topics xx  Jump onto any thread that might interest you!  :) 
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Try not to get ahead of yourself with the 'what ifs' (particularly whilst you are waiting for your results) ... as they just may never happen!   And please STAY AWAY from Dr Google too!!  So much of the stuff on there is not relevant to your own diagnosis & may be years out of date!!  Trust your Medical team and your Breast Care Nurse for your immediate, reliable information (or us, as we have a 'lived experience' of it all !!)

Definitely take a trusted friend or family member with you to all your early appointments - and also consider recording your appointments - so that you can go over it again later on, as it is almost impossible to remember everything that is said at the time xx

In the mean time, keep yourself as busy as you can, doing things you love doing (being mindful of any physical restrictions of your recovery from your surgery) is one way of stopping the brain from going off on wild tangents!  xx. 

Take care & all the best for your recovery & results xx