Hi everyone and thanks for all your replys. @volunty, @Aussiegirl19
@onemargie, @Cynth6 @LucyE
As mentioned above we went to Bali for a week of family time before chemo starts. It was wonderful to have some time with all 4 of us together which is rare these days as our son is in Perth at Uni and we are 2 hrs away.
Many times while over there I would forget about the journey I am on which was nice however most of the time is was in the background which made me 'stop and smell the roses' more than normal. That was nice too. It was a relaxing trip away.
It is 5 weeks post op tomorrow for me and I see my oncologist on Wednesday and it can't come soon enough. The waiting has felt like forever to find out my treatment regime. I'm sure it's silly to want to know what drugs and how often but for some reason I keep thinking I'm going to go in there and they will tell me some tests were wrong and I don't need chemo. Wishful thinking I guess? I think seeing him will make me come to terms with it a little more and accept what is to come. Not sure if that's good or bad?
I am feeling much better mentally than when first diagnosed. Those first couple of weeks are tough. I do still struggle with the triple negative side of things and the 'stats' etc but I try to push it aside and focus on the things that I know not the 'what if's'. I do still cry now and again, some days no tears and some days I'm teary. Is this normal? I don't feel depressed or anything I just feel over whelmed and scared at times I think.
It has been really great to be able to log on and read what others are writing and find info I'm looking for. Thanks xxx
