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Devastated and confused
Hi all, I have just been diagnosed with early breast cancer and I am absolutely devastated, confused and just overwhelmed. So much is going through my head and I am just beside myself. I am completel...
Oh I am so sorry to hear that, and you are so right, it's the new reality. And to be honest I can't even utter the words "I have cancer". It's even hard to write it here. I'm in such shock and all I do is rewind the conversation from my results appointment, and the only thing that comforts me a bit is the words "early". But it's still so scary and surreal. I am also angry with myself as to how did I not feel the lump myself, even though they did say it's very hard to feel it, I still think I should have tried harder. Don't know, it's a very tough time.
I wish you and everyone else who is going through this difficult journey all the best. I would love to stay in touch and we can all keep each other updated on our journey and progress. 🙏
Oh me too, about not being able to say "I have cancer" even writing it here is surreal.
I was out with some friends this afternoon and didn't tell them because A) I don't have any other news, dates, treamtent etc and B) the more I say it the more real it is and I don't think I'm ready for that yet. C) not sure I know how to deal with other peoples feelings about it
I am giving myself until I have a treatment plan, or something, before I am telling my wider circle of friends/family/work. (My manager knows as I've been off having appointments)
I hear you! I only told my kids and mum even though I really didn't want to. Mum told my brother, but I asked them not to tell anyone else. As you said I just don't know how to deal with it all, and don't even know if I want others to know. It's such a weird and surreal feeling. Last night we went to my sister's in law birthday get together they had at home, and I just didn't want to tell anyone. As you said, I don't know if I can deal with it all. I'm not even sure if I am ready with random phone calls of shocking questions etc... I don't know if that sounds weird or "selfish", but it is just hard to explain, don't know.... 😢