Hi Sue, what can I say? You've had such a long road with bc, it's scary for those of us with early bc to look that far ahead. Yet here you are calmly organising your care with dignity and courage....... I hope you are surrounded by people who love and care for you, don't be afraid to allow your children to be a part of your care. This could be a precious time for you to share. If you'd like a friend to keep in touch, send me a personal message, maybe we could be email buddies. I wish I could do more to help xXx