I often wondered how you were and if you did part company with your husband. Good on you for losing all that weight - that is amazing. As bmc stated I was told to "settle" and just go with the flow and not hurry anything as it takes at least 2 years after treatment has finished to feel anywhere near 100%. It will be 2 years for my completion of treatment (except for daily Arimidex) in June 2013. Most of the time now (only in the last two/three months) I feel pretty well. Mind you I work extremely hard at it. I take loads of herbs, go to get lymp massages every fortnight, see a life coach, see a keineseologist and try to live a quiet life - but a good life. It is only now that I have felt like going back to work (part time). Things come to test me though as I have hurt my back again. Just little reminders to take it easy. My suggestion is to take lots of herbal supplements. My Keinesologist test all my meds to see if they are appropriate for my body. Pretty hodo kind of stuff but I believe in it and it seems to work for me. I went back to work after my first diagnosis but with the second one I was older and the chemo did knock my body around. I would be interested to find out how you lost the weight as I have at least 10kg to be free of. Again well done with the changes in your life (for the better). Change does take a toll though so "cut yourself some slack" and take it a bit easier. Cheers to you XLeonie