I finished 4 weeks of rads (incl 1 week of boost) and was terrified the whole time of the staff, the machine and never ever knowing what was going on. The scariest part was finding I was not anyone who mattered anymore but a number. I’m fortunate to say I’m not used to being treated so badly. I though the health sector HD improved quality standards and shared decision making etc. probably Govt hospital have to but the private ones make money and write crap about patient care on their websites. So the private rad team I saw were terrible, bad tempered and disorganised. The car park attendant knew my name but none of them did after 4 weeks and even had me confused with another patient on the last day And I would have got her radiation if I wasn’t paying attention.
So that was the big adjustment - being so vigilant when they wanted me to be passive, and realising medical people can be so awful. (My mother was a nurse my father a doctor and we’re so kind)
As for the side effects, it’s true this comes post treatment and my soreness is three weeks post finishing, but not terrible. Hasn’t changed how I function, and my breast just looks worse than it is.
-You will have much time wasted on discussion about non perfumed skin cream when you just need to pick one and put it on all the time
- nobody can make this better for you and the nurses and doctors use empty words and BS. Everything is apparently in your head or not important according to them. Lower your expectations - mine were too high. Just get through with it and be kind to yourself as treatment ends.
- nobody will care about you properly except you and everyone wants you to appear ok. Even those close to you.
So for many the end of radiation marks the end of active treatment - I am relieved and going through the anger of pretending not to be angry and the fact that nobody did help me. I did it all. Because I looked okay absolutely nobody was going to lift a finger.
ive taken a lot of words to say a few things about when people and treatment isn’t what you expected.
I truly hope your team and family are more supportive than mine. And that you sail through rads. It was the radiation it was the stuff I wasnt expecting that hurt most!!
i wish you all the best
xxx