@arpie thanks for your advice & you're right, don't second guess the results. I can't do anything now except wait & why worry over something that may not happen....easier said than done but I'm trying!! If the result is negative then you are all invited to my house for a party!! If negative I will be asking for guidance, prayers & help as i weigh up all the options. The worse is when you go to bed & lie there thinking & then the tears start. I try not to go to bed til late so I am extra tired & it helps. I will try some of the meditations from @sandramj & that will help me relax. good luck with your upcoming rad treatment & i'll be interested if they let you use the Mepitel. hugs xx