Positive but fearful at the same time

Ohh girls thank you so much for all your feedback!  I knew there were a lot of women out there on this journey but until you take the path yourself you never REALLY understand.  I see so many of us now, I notice others all the time where once I would just walk straight past, I now try to make eye contact and give that knowing smile.  Alison you were right the BER is to do with the cells.  I met with my radiologist for the first time last week and he gave me a thorough understanding of staging & grading.  I left feeling so much more positive.  My 2nd chemo treatment was last week and it was tougher for me to recover this time but I have come good in the last couple of days.  The emotion I feel sometimes is overwhelming.  I have to tell you though my beautiful 12 year old daughter gave me a gift last night.  She had made me a pretty jar called "Happy Thoughts" and filled it with little hand written notes.  The rules are that when I am feeling down I take a little note from the jar and read the happy thought!  It bought tears to my eyes..... I am trying to walk as often as possible, drink plenty of water and rest when my body tells me to.  The next treatment is the halfway point for chemo YAY !!  Then 3 to go...  I try not to think too far ahead and just take each treatment one at a time.  Again my new found friends, thank you for your encouraging comments and support, knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel and life will return to a different more postive normality is encouraging.  Chelle x x x x x x