Over halfway and need to regather my thoughts!
Hi everyone!
Just over halfway with 4th chemo done. This one was first docetaxil. The lovely nurse said I would like this better than FEC but I now realize she was wrong. I would much rather nausea managed with tablets than aching bones and stomach cramps! Yes tablets help but these symptoms are not dissipating as quickly as FEC chemo symptoms, I would normally be back at work today! Also the steriods have really messed about with my bowels, from none to the runs and back again! My poor bum is red raw!
Also I have realised I am mentally tired. Being positive and still keeping up with life is not always possible. I am starting to think about who I am going to be after breast cancer! I know I am no longer going to be the girl who drank as much as I did, I suspect I am going to continue to eat mostly sugar free but how else will I change? And will my husband and friends still think of me the way they did before breast cancer? Change is a challenge for some people.
I am also starting to think of the different things I want to do after treatment like challenges such as maybe a walking holiday or a fun run and even taking up some volunteer work. I just want to do more. My bucket list is starting to take formation!
Positive things are also realised with breast cancer! A lovely lady saw me at the shops having a rest and she stopped to chat and offered to buy me coffee! Robyn thank you, it was lovely to chat and meet someone so open. My work colleagues to whom I am very greatful too! You let me just get on with my job but also check in to make sure I am ok. This is wonderfully reassuring and appreciated.
Being over half way in the treatment plan is also positive! The end in November is going to be celebrated with a holiday with my husband and friends. Something I am so looking forward to! Hoping there will be some good hair on my head by then!
Wishing everyone well managed symptoms and positive thoughts! Enjoy today!
Vx