I am also new. I have a mammogram that came back clear in December 2015 and 4 weeks later was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer at 48. I am having 8 rounds of chemo (just had round 4 so half way) then a mastectomy. I have elected to have both breasts removed as I didn't want to have it come back in my good breast and go through all this again and I thought it will be better for a even reconstruction. They have also just told me I have to have radiotherapy after the mastectomy so getting the full cancer experience.
I also am worried about the surgery. I can deal with the chemo but surgery is the start of the physical change. I have decided to get a friend that is a photographer to take some nice photos of my breasts before they are gone. They are quite good ones if I do say so myself and I would like to have a memory of them. Even if it is just for me to see in years to come. I am also thinking about doing a plaster cast of them. I know it might sound crazy but I think it will be well worth it. Have heard of other women doing it and they all are so glad they did.
I think you just have to keep an eye on the light at the end of the tunnel. Everything we are going through is for the end result which is being here for a very long time.
I never thought being a DD I would every have fake boobs but that is whats going to happen and I will look at all the positives that will bring. I try not to look an any of the negatives.
Good luck with your journey
Annie