Newbi

I understand exactly where you're coming from. The diagnosis was the first part of my journey where I faulted not because of what I felt about me but more about how I felt I was going to tell my parents, who had already lost one child that I was going to have to fight to live. Then I decided that I was going to fight this thing with everything I could and there was no way my parents would bury another child or my children would be left without a mother. Once I made that decision I actively chose to remain positive and throughout my 4 rounds of AC and 5 rounds of Taxol that's exactly what I did. Then all of a sudden I was faced with the surgery and there was that downside again. I had surgery 5 days ago (unilateral and ancillary clearance) and apart from having to ask for help with some things it's actually not as bad as I thought. The loss of the breast isn't really the issue for me at this stage it's the loss of independence. I guess my main point is that often we seem to stress over how certain stages will impact us and how we'll cope but we are all far stronger than we realise, and when we have those low days this forum helps us to know it's not just us and there is life after BC Best of luck with your treatment and even when you don't feel like posting its worth reading other people's posts to keep you going because often someone else has already asked your question. Xx